Legend of my hairstyle

I always thought braids were created to neat-up tidy looks. http://www.instyle.com/instyle/package/general/photos/0,,20542055_20546014_21081850,00.html

After reading hair articles, I feel very stupid for pressuring myself to achieve tidy-smooth hair styles.
For years, I was disappointed with my oily-thick, frizzy-shapeless, accessory-unfriendly hair.
yeah, it's super-dark brunette which looks scary when the wind just blew.. it weights down in wrong direction which makes itself look abandoned. 

Once, my maternal uncle said that hairstyle is the most important for a person's impression.

Since I was a child, and early teenager, my parents always gave me short bob which made me very curious to have longer hairstyle when I grew up. and I did.
then I found that I can't clip my hair like my mom and her sisters do. It's too thick for accessories. they either got broken or slowly smooth down from where I pinned them.
Although its shape is not one of those beautiful, my hair don't not like to be ruled.
I don't have other choice but to cut it according to it's natural way. Now it is jut bangs and flat (but not-so-neat) brunette.
I could never wear a braid or bun to any event because I did not know how to make it neatly.
I could not maintain well the long brunette look that I always dreamed to have, until enlightened just now.

I feel that people intentionally try to look messy nowadays since they can never achieve neat looks without painful efforts.
Well, it is also painful to look messy now. There is heat and chemical in every product to create great hairdo.
Then, what is a great hairdo, by the way? Healthy & clean & comfortable and then ....
Trying to look flawless and damaging one's self-esteem with perfectionism is unhealthy.

Thinking rationally, I'm lucky to have black shiny hair together with deep-dark bright eyes.
After all, the best beauty charm is a smile from pure heart.

Shopping Reflection

Guilt:
Something essential was not bought.
Something extra was bought.

Glad:
Something essential was bought.
Something extra was not bought.

Moral of the story is, enjoy what have been bought and be happy.

Golden dream

mirror mirror

Thousands, many skin care tips I read, then still... all I remember is water and sleep.
how do I manage my daily look @_@

cleansing, some facial foam, sometimes, only cold water..
moisturizer, sometimes, skipped or mix-up with foundation..
foundation- one tone, sometimes, skipped..
eye shadow- mono, sometimes, skipped..
no concealer,
no lash or brow manipulation,
messy hairstyle, 5 to 10 strokes of brushing,
lipstick, 2 strokes; // done.

I seriously like to learn how to do my daily make-up.., better than above.
My "anyhow" attitude must be changed. . . just to feel beautiful ...

the secret article

Melting snow by bro zLp

DIY my skin ???

I find those DIY Kitchen Skin Care Products are disgusting.
who wants to put food on the face/ hair/ skin ???
plus, doesn't it attract insects and bacteria to come closes?

How do I feel when I smell like something I ate?
Especially something I drunk like alcohol?
That's another problem about Kitchen-Beauty.
Food shouldn't be used anyhow for selfish reasons.

I like normal products.
They don't smell like food. I feel safe.
I love to feel cosmetic as cosmetic and food as food.
They both are enjoyable in different ways.
Appreciating myself while being away from insects thread is bliss.

Ghost n blackout